Feeling Worthless? God helps.

On an October Sunday this past Fall, a strong negative feeling of discouragement started to overwhelm me. I felt that whatever kind of ministry I did for the Lord was worth nothing and I was a useless Christian. For a while these feelings were like a whirlpool from which there was no escape.

Too often, when I have such annoying or uncomfortable feelings, I want to quickly escape from them; trying to push them aside or shut them down as quickly as possible to escape any pain. But when I do that, I don’t thoroughly understand what’s going on in my heart and I miss the opportunity to really grow.

On this fall Sunday afternoon, one means of escape would have been to watch a good football game. But with a miserable Jets game on one channel and a horrible Giants game on the other, there was no escape. I was forced to deal with what I was experiencing.  What did it mean? What exactly was making me feel so worthless? What was God trying to show me, and how could he help me?

This is where the Lord drew me to Romans 12:3 and it came alive :For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.

But you may ask, how does feeling low and discouraged mean you are thinking too highly of yourself? Here’s why: it’s thinking that what’s going on in my life all depends on me and not on God.

If I know what my true strengths and true weaknesses are before God, then I can better resist whenever there is an onslaught of negativity, a lie that contradicts God.  When negativity arises, I like how God invites us to spew out our frustrations to him:

 I pour out before him my complaint;
    before him I tell my trouble.

Listen to my cry,
    for I am in desperate need;
(Psalm 142:2,6)

I start taking my reactions to the Lord in prayer. But it’s not just me and God.

Because many who are reading this are brothers and sisters are going through the same thing. I am not the only one who wrestles with the gap between where I am and everything that God wants me to be.  In the above Psalm David continues in verse 7: Set me free from my prison, that I may praise your name. I love this — for I know that God will respond! By admitting our shortcomings and not hiding from them, God begins to turn around even our bad reactions to build more of Christ in us.

One thought on “Feeling Worthless? God helps.

  1. Kenny

    I was there in 1999 (but even worse) – I was painting my picket fence… not only did I “feel” useless, I was being told by the leader of the Church that I “WAS” USELESS… to God or man… driving to work that week, thru the woods, I heard this voice telling me to just “end it all – pull the car off the road, down the ravine into the river”…

    I was having some other kind of pity party with the Lord…. telling Him all I had ever wanted to do this last 32 years was “serve Him” and… look at me now… a burned out useless mess… am I even part of your body any more?… what am I… some kind of growth in your armpit? something you can just snip off if you want to?… then He spoke… in that incredible, loving voice of His…

    “Philip… I never asked you to DO anything for me… all I ever wanted was a relationship with you”… I cried and cried and… I was FREE… the last 20 years have been amazing… unlearning all those years of religious baloney I was taught and taught others. The most difficult thing for human beings to DO… is NOTHING. Just sit there and enjoy Him.

    Finally at the point where I get up in the morning, grab my cup of coffee, get back in my LAZY-Boy… and have coffee time with Father. Nothing like it. No way to describe it.

    philip

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